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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-09 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)


Kaede's head tilted a little, her horns exaggerating the gesture somewhat. For a moment, she considered not answering. Or simply answering "no". This woman carried on like Kaede had been speaking this whole time, even when she hadn't been. Though Jade did answer her when she'd been hanging over the cliff. Could always see if that happened twice, Kaede supposed. But her vectors stayed de-manifested and quiet for now.

"D̷i̸d̷ ̶I̵ ̷s̵t̴u̴t̸t̸e̴r̸?̴" she finally said, voice as echoey as before.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-09 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)


The ghost snorted as Jade almost toppled right back off the cliff, though there was no breath accompanying it. There were plenty of times she had simply stared off at strange horizons and unfamiliar stars. There were also plenty of things she'd been privy to that probably weren't for mixed company.

"S̵i̵n̶c̵e̷ ̸I̴.̸.̶.̷" the ghost trailed off a moment, gaze flicking away. "W̸o̴k̷e̶ ̸u̸p̷ ̶h̸e̶r̸e̸.̴" It hadn't really been waking up, was it?

How funny. She'd been so desperate to leave, and yet those little echoes of what things had been were what Kaede clung to first.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-09 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)


Kaede glanced at her hand; she could see the fire crackling right through it. She started to answer--but Jade beat her to it. So instead, she just shrugged, drawn a bit closer to the fire herself by the trinket's tether.

"P̷r̷e̵t̵t̸y̶ ̶s̶u̸r̷e̴ ̵I̴'̸m̷ ̶j̶u̸s̵t̵ ̸d̵e̴a̴d̵.̷"

...did she think Kaede had been answering her? There had been times she noticed Jade start or stare at something the ghost couldn't see. But nothing the scarred woman said annoyed her enough to say something about before.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-10 01:28 am (UTC)(link)


She remembered that. For a long few moments, Kaede assumed that jackal was howling about her. Because of course she was a monster, and a fleshless shade on top of that. She couldn't smell the blood smeared on his face but it still barely fazed her, desensitized and numbed years and years ago. His words cut more.

And yet they'd left him, crumpled on the wayside. It could have been anything, really, that made him collapse like that. The sickness, the blood, a little touch to an artery in his heart...

Kaede was a monster, after all. Just a dead one.

"D̸o̸n̴'̴t̷ ̵k̷n̴o̵w̶.," she said simply, though without the bemused air of before. "D̷o̷ ̵g̸h̸o̶s̴t̷s̵ ̴u̶s̸u̸a̵l̸l̴y̸ ̴r̴e̴m̸e̶m̷b̶e̶r̵ ̸t̸h̴e̴y̷ ̷c̸a̶n̸'̷t̶ ̷t̷a̷l̵k̸ ̸h̵e̶r̵e̸?̸"
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-22 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)


Kaede didn't say much for awhile, only listening. But something seemed to go out of her shoulders at the end, and she sighed to herself, a useless gesture for something without lungs.

"G̸u̶e̴s̶s̷ ̴I̷'̵m̷ ̷a̶l̶w̴a̷y̸s̷ ̸g̷o̵i̶n̸g̴ ̸t̷o̷ ̵b̵e̶ ̷w̶e̵i̷r̸d̸,̷ ̸h̷u̷h̷.̶"

Despite her no longer having a body and nerve endings to feel with, her horns still seemed to sit heavier on her head, a crown of bones that marked her strangeness.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-22 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)


The specter made a quiet huff, though she did glance over when Jade's movement caught her peripheral vision.

"K̷a̸m̵a̴k̵u̸r̵a̵.̶ ̶ ̷D̷o̸n̶'̷t̷ ̴t̶h̸i̸n̶k̶ ̴y̴o̶u̷ ̸c̵a̸n̶ ̷g̶e̴t̴ ̶t̶h̶e̶r̶e̶ ̵f̴r̶o̶m̸ ̶h̶e̵r̸e̵.," the ghost said, unperturbed by the question.

At first, Kaede had assumed the strange stars were simply a fact of the afterlife, gleaming bright above purple smoke. But...it was odd. There were more things that seemed alive than dead. Things she couldn't touch, flowers that grew, the endless cycle of day and night continuing like a clock still in motion. The ghost was the only thing that was stopped at the hour. Everything else in the world carried on without her.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-09-22 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)


This time she does snort. "N̴o̴t̴ ̷a̴t̵ ̵a̴l̸l̶.̴ ̶ ̷J̷u̴s̴t̵ ̷m̸e̷,̵ ̴a̴n̶d̵.̴.̶.̴a̴ ̷f̷e̶w̴ ̴o̷t̷h̴e̷r̸s̷.̶," the ghost said, pausing at the end enough that the echoes nearly stopped before she continued.

"W̶e̵'̴r̸e̴ ̷d̸i̸c̷l̷o̸n̶i̸u̶s̷.̸ ̸ ̵E̷v̵e̵r̷y̵o̶n̷e̸ ̴e̷l̷s̵e̶ ̶i̴s̴ ̷h̵u̴m̵a̵n̵.̷ ̵ ̸A̶n̵d̸ ̴n̷o̵ ̶o̵n̵e̸ ̵g̵e̷t̴s̷ ̷a̷l̸o̷n̶g̷.̶" The last part was almost a morose mutter than clear words, even more echoey and melancholy than the last. It wasn't entirely true; her other self could coexist with others just fine. Her other self was...happy, without effort. And then there was Kaede, the monster who clawed through the mirror's glass. Who only found fleeting happiness in time to make its absence twist the knife that much more.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-10-06 06:44 pm (UTC)(link)


Though she had no breath to do so, the ghost still seemed to sigh herself; a quiet, tired noise. "T̴h̴a̷t̶'̵s̶ ̴h̵o̴w̵ ̸i̴t̸ ̵a̶l̶w̸a̸y̸s̴ ̵g̵o̷e̵s̵,̵ ̷i̸s̷n̴'̶t̴ ̷i̶t̴.̵"

Kaede glanced away from the trailing smoke, again at the strange horizon that now was the only one she could see.

"A̶ ̷l̶i̵v̴i̴n̷g̶ ̵n̶i̷g̸h̷t̶m̴a̴r̴e̸ ̷y̸o̴u̷'̷l̶l̷ ̴n̵e̸v̷e̵r̸ ̷l̷e̶a̸v̵e̸ ̸b̸e̴h̵i̷n̷d̴.̴" A pause, and the specter snorted a dry and mirthless rattle. "G̶u̷e̸s̷s̴ ̷n̷o̵t̵ ̴s̵o̵ ̵m̸u̸c̶h̵ ̶t̷h̵e̷ ̷l̷i̸v̴i̶n̸g̶ ̸p̴a̵r̶t̴.̶"
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"L̴i̴k̷e̵ ̷w̵h̷a̸t̸?̷ ̶ ̵I̴'̸m̶ ̶a̶l̵r̴e̵a̵d̸y̷ ̴d̷e̵a̸d̵.̵" Kaede's thoughts, as usual, were bitter ones. What was the point of fixing something that had already been cast aside? She didn't belong in the world she'd been born in. So she left. Wasn't that enough? What was therapy, anyway?

"M̸o̶r̴e̴ ̸t̷r̷a̴n̶q̷u̸i̴l̴ ̴t̸h̷a̸n̴ ̸I̷ ̶t̷h̷o̸u̴g̷h̸t̷ ̶d̴e̴a̴t̷h̷ ̵w̵o̸u̶l̷d̶ ̷b̴e̸,̷ ̸a̸t̴ ̴l̸e̸a̷s̷t̴.̵" Noticeably fewer flames, somewhat less screaming. Still hostility, but far less than any depiction of hell she'd heard of.
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[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2023-11-02 05:20 am (UTC)(link)


There's no eternal fires, demons ducking her in boiling water constantly, or screaming that had gone on so long no one cared to listen to it anymore. Just moments of fighting and death and bloody violence like she'd known when alive. No--that she'd numbed herself to.

But this sort of thing she hadn't grown numb to at all.

Kaede didn't answer immediately. Or meet Jade's gaze. But unlike the disengaged air she'd worn before, the ghost seemed to shift on feet that no longer touched solid ground, and tense up her shoulders.

"W̸͎̊h̷̻̄y̴͈̆?̷͕̇" Was all the ghost said, for awhile. The specter's voice was much more distorted than it was just moments ago.

"I̵ ̵d̵o̸n̷'̸t̵ ̷d̷e̸s̴e̵r̸v̵e̶ ̷t̶h̸a̸t̵ ̸p̴e̴a̸c̶e̴.̷"