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Though she had no breath to do so, the ghost still seemed to sigh herself; a quiet, tired noise. "T̴h̴a̷t̶'̵s̶ ̴h̵o̴w̵ ̸i̴t̸ ̵a̶l̶w̸a̸y̸s̴ ̵g̵o̷e̵s̵,̵ ̷i̸s̷n̴'̶t̴ ̷i̶t̴.̵"

Kaede glanced away from the trailing smoke, again at the strange horizon that now was the only one she could see.

"A̶ ̷l̶i̵v̴i̴n̷g̶ ̵n̶i̷g̸h̷t̶m̴a̴r̴e̸ ̷y̸o̴u̷'̷l̶l̷ ̴n̵e̸v̷e̵r̸ ̷l̷e̶a̸v̵e̸ ̸b̸e̴h̵i̷n̷d̴.̴" A pause, and the specter snorted a dry and mirthless rattle. "G̶u̷e̸s̷s̴ ̷n̷o̵t̵ ̴s̵o̵ ̵m̸u̸c̶h̵ ̶t̷h̵e̷ ̷l̷i̸v̴i̶n̸g̶ ̸p̴a̵r̶t̴.̶"

"Can't say it isn't always deserved," Jade scoffs. "I certainly shouldn't even be here."

Both literally and metaphorically. She should have been dead at the bottom of the Red Sea, lungs filled with saltwater.

She closes her eyes and smokes, trying not to imagine her own rotting corpse.

"But, well... Maybe there's something I can do about what ails you. Somehow."

Jade isn't one to believe things happen for a reason, but the fact that Kaede is the first communicative ghost has to mean something, right?

"L̴i̴k̷e̵ ̷w̵h̷a̸t̸?̷ ̶ ̵I̴'̸m̶ ̶a̶l̵r̴e̵a̵d̸y̷ ̴d̷e̵a̸d̵.̵" Kaede's thoughts, as usual, were bitter ones. What was the point of fixing something that had already been cast aside? She didn't belong in the world she'd been born in. So she left. Wasn't that enough? What was therapy, anyway?

"M̸o̶r̴e̴ ̸t̷r̷a̴n̶q̷u̸i̴l̴ ̴t̸h̷a̸n̴ ̸I̷ ̶t̷h̷o̸u̴g̷h̸t̷ ̶d̴e̴a̴t̷h̷ ̵w̵o̸u̶l̷d̶ ̷b̴e̸,̷ ̸a̸t̴ ̴l̸e̸a̷s̷t̴.̵" Noticeably fewer flames, somewhat less screaming. Still hostility, but far less than any depiction of hell she'd heard of.

"Tranquil is probably not the word I'd use, but okay..."

True, it's arguably better than being dead. Or is it? When you're frequently attacked by brigands, undead, as well as crazed red-eyed people and rabid animals, a moment of peace is a rare blessing.

Kind of like right now, really. Despite the initial eight-legged scare, she's actually having a nice chat over a campfire. There's gotta be something to say about that, right?

"Don't you wanna... I dunno. Move on or something? Find peace, or whatever it is that dead people do?" At least that's the impression Jade always got.

There's no eternal fires, demons ducking her in boiling water constantly, or screaming that had gone on so long no one cared to listen to it anymore. Just moments of fighting and death and bloody violence like she'd known when alive. No--that she'd numbed herself to.

But this sort of thing she hadn't grown numb to at all.

Kaede didn't answer immediately. Or meet Jade's gaze. But unlike the disengaged air she'd worn before, the ghost seemed to shift on feet that no longer touched solid ground, and tense up her shoulders.

"W̸͎̊h̷̻̄y̴͈̆?̷͕̇" Was all the ghost said, for awhile. The specter's voice was much more distorted than it was just moments ago.

"I̵ ̵d̵o̸n̷'̸t̵ ̷d̷e̸s̴e̵r̸v̵e̶ ̷t̶h̸a̸t̵ ̸p̴e̴a̸c̶e̴.̷"

Eternal damnation is the kind of thing that theists believe in. Jade never bought into that stuff, and even now with her skills in Phasmalism, she still doesn't, if only because she never thought of this as an 'afterlife' for the souls. It's just another state of being -- a piece of remain that's unable to pass on.

"Y'know, I don't think it's about whether someone's deserving of it or not. No one should be stuck in this existence. Something like that... would just drive about anyone insane, I think."

Even if this spirit proved to be helpful in a variety of ways, Jade would never want to keep using her if it kept her in this reality.

Jade shrugs. "And besides... I'm no saint, either."

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